I have found that taking the time for special moments is harder with my little Jocelyn. Not because of her but because of big brother who wants the same attention.
Because I was practically an only child with all my siblings much older than me I got all the attention...from everyone. So watching Jocelyn be happy with just a passing smile or a quick hug sometimes hurts my heart because she really does deserve hours and hours of uninterrupted hugs, kisses, and cuddling.
I try to remind myself that God's plan is always good. I know Jocelyn is a very happy and loved little girl. I try to look for things to teach her, moments to share with her, and ways to grow Taylor and her relationship so they will have a strong bond. I suppose when you are a mama you eventually realize that no matter how hard you try things aren't perfect. I really am ok with that. Its just when I see Jocelyn's beautiful eyes start to close for the night the thought rushes through my head, "this is the end of one more of our days together, did I show her I love her enough". I am so deeply grateful that I never have to wonder about how much God loves my little ones. He is sooooo good, He is so perfect. I can stop trying to be. I am so thankful. Those are my thoughts for tonight. Good-night, little Jocelyn, you are loved.
I have found that taking the time for special moments is harder with my little Jocelyn. Not because of her but because of big brother who wants the same attention. 
Because I was practically an only child with all my siblings much older than me I got all the attention...from everyone. So watching Jocelyn be happy with just a passing smile or a quick hug sometimes hurts my heart because she really does deserve hours and hours of uninterrupted hugs, kisses, and cuddling. 
I try to remind myself that God's plan is always good. I know Jocelyn is a very happy and loved little girl. I try to look for things to teach her, moments to share with her, and ways to grow Taylor and her relationship so they will have a strong bond. I suppose when you are a mama you eventually realize that no matter how hard you try things aren't perfect. I really am ok with that. Its just when I see Jocelyn's beautiful eyes start to close for the night the thought rushes through my head, "this is the end of one more of our days together, did I show her I love her enough". I am so deeply grateful that I never have to wonder about how much God loves my little ones. He is sooooo good, He is so perfect. I can stop trying to be. I am so thankful. Those are my thoughts for tonight. Good-night, little Jocelyn, you are loved.
1 comment:
She's gorgeous. Thanks for being so real.
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